Karma and Gravity

What goes around comes around. What goes up must come down. It is very true that every single thing in life has to be well balanced. My last post was about me being very happy and feeling all dandy but yesterday just proved the "karma" theory. Don't get me wrong this isn't about something bad that I did and I'm paying for it now, it's just about me being really happy one day then feeling really sad the next.

Sometimes we can't help but feel that some things are just really too good to be true. So here's the story. I will try to make it as inconspicuous as possible. There's this person who matters to be by association. And I try very hard for this person, who matters to me because of someone I love, to like me but a little birdie in the sky told me that this person has reservations about me. These things that I found out really hurt my feelings because all along I thought that this person really likes me. And the things this person doesn't like about me were really petty little things and it made me re-evaluate every single thing that I do around this said person. I can't help but become paranoid. I keep thinking to myself if the smallest of things tick this person off what more my other antics?

It was a hard couple of days. It's been hard trying to focus on things cause this person is always at the back of my mind. The person that connects us means the world to me and pleasing this other person is essential to me. I guess some of you already have a vague idea of who or what situation I'm talking about. Till the time I sort things out!

-smart aleck

Beautiful Mornings

Hi everyone! So sorry for missing in action. It's been a very busy past couple of days. The 25th was the boyfriend's birthday, and yesterday I've been organizing a reunion with my elementary friends that is going to be today, the 27th which is also my uncle's birthday. But despite the hustle and bustle I am very contented with my life right now and pretty much on a high. I woke up really early, well way earlier than I usually do. I got up at around 5:30am and just stayed awake. I started browsing the net and checking my FaceBook.

What made me entitle this post "Beautiful Mornings" when it's not even sunny outside? Well I just woke up with this light and carefree feeling inside of me. Now i'm listening to Beyonce's latest release, 1 + 1 (One Plus One) from her newest album 4 which will hit stores on June 28, included in the album is it's carrier single "Run the World (Girls)". Anyway 1+1 (One Plus One) is a very beautiful song, it's a beautiful love song ballad that talks about cherishing your partner and knowing that in the end you've got nobody else to share your life with but your partner, special someone, better half... :) It's a very moving song with very strong lyrics, it's nice. Quite inspiring.

Here's a video with the lyrics on the screen. Enjoy!

I leave you folks with that. Check back in later to update you guys and share what happened during our reunion.  Best wishes to all! Have a wonderful day and make the best out of every situation you are faced. Later!

-smart aleck

Why are thin people not fat?

Hello dear friends! Watch this documentary it is very interesting and you will learn a whole lot! It might seem like a bad idea at first but it is quite uplifting to know that you are your body weight and size right now not because it's your fault but because of inevitable biological reasons beyond one's control! :D GOOD DAY!

-smart aleck

"Blogger Psychology"

Good morning. It looks like today is going to be an interesting day. The boyfriend is coming over to spend the day with me and will be bringing breakfast. I didn't get anywhere yesterday because I didn't have keys cause I left it at my boyfriends. Later we'll be going to the hospital to get some of my blood worked up, wish me luck!

I was wondering how do some people keep their blogs unbelievably interesting. Is it possible that they just make up stories or come up with a list of interesting topics and refer to it every single day so there is something fresh and new to talk about? It's possible right? But doesn't that take the genuineness out of the whole blogging experience? Blogging is supposed to be writing and expressing day to day adventures, mishaps and random thoughts. If they are planned then they are just considered commercial and for cheap entertainment. But then again isn't that another aspect of blogging? It's for your readers or followers entertainment. What made me think about this? Well in all honesty it just crossed my mind. As I sat down to write this post I thought it would only be a filler containing 3 to 4 sentences then it ends with me promising another post within the day, but no I came up with the "Blogger Psychology" topic. Hahaha!

Anyway this post is already way longer than expected, so I will just say goodbye for the moment and really try my best to get back to you guys later today. Peace and Love.

-smart aleck

Ready.... GO!

Hello everyone! :) To start things off I would want to apologize for the lack of blog posts the past couple of days. I spent the night at my boyfriend's place and totally forgot about blogging, I guess it hasn't sunk in to me that much yet. Writing a blog hasn't been embedded in my must do's in a day. I had a great weekend and it's back to another manic Monday. My classes are over and I'm just waiting for the enrollment period for the coming first semester for the soon to start academic year 2011-2012. I feel like I gained a little after spending the weekend with my boyfriend's family, they are such foodies that it's so hard to keep up with my diet. Later I will be going to the gym to burn those unwanted calories, after I would go to the grocery to shop for ingredients because I will be cooking Chicken Fettuccine for the boyfriend's birthday this Wednesday! He will be turning the same age as me cause I'm  a few months older than him. It's already 3:10pm here in the sunny country of the Philippines and my day is just about to start. In a few minutes I will get ready to go to the gym. It's been weeks since I visited I haven't been very good at constantly going to the gym mainly because I've been sick a whole lot. I will take it easy but I will try to sweat a ton. Nothing interesting has materialized in my noodle yet and nothing has come up in my boring life yet so i'll check back in maybe later tonight to tell you guys how my day went and possibly write something more meaningful and worth reading. Till later!

-smart aleck

Love. Profoundness.

Hello there. So my boyfriend and I have finally worked out our differences and talked about our fight. All is back to the way it should be. While on the topic I thought to myself, how come i love you is something that shouldn't be said so freely? Why can't we tell the people we care about how much we love them whether they be guys or girls, gays, transgenders, transexuals, and the like. It doesn't mean that if you are in a relationship with someone telling another person or a friend, or someone other than your family, that you love them means it's the same kind of love you share with your better half. Right? Someone I know said, and i'm sure a lot of you will agree, it's because the words means so much and because love is a very precious thing. But you see that's where it holds a problem for me. And this is what immediately came to mind, by the way I think this is by far the most profound thing that I've thought of, LOVE is the MOST precious thing there is in the world, best of all it's FREE and yet the WORLD LACKS LOVE. It craves for it every single day. So think about it. Is love precious enough that it mustn't be said very freely or is is precious enough that it's a gift you must share? Till my next random thought.

-smart aleck

There are no words to describe it.

Please watch this very heart warming video. It is very amazing. I loved it so much. I just kept crying and crying and crying. Perfect piece to end the night with. Night and sweet dreams everyone.

-smart aleck

Waking up just to find out the anger is gone.

Hello. It's currently 8:32 am here in the Philippines and I just woke up a few minutes ago. I'm actually sick and I'm supposed to be drinking my medicine round the clock, every 4 hours but I didn't wake up at 2 am or 6 am so I guess I'm restarting the cycle to 8 am, 12 pm, and so on. My throat is very sore and it's so hard to swallow even liquids or saliva. I've been given medicine and this spray thing that I spray on the specific area after every meal but two days have passed and it doesn't seem to work! In fact I think it has made my throat worse. My throat used to hurt only when I swallow but now even if I don't it hurts.

Anyway my many illnesses isn't really the focus of this post. I'm more bothered by my emotional ordeal right now. Have you ever had a fight with someone the day or night before and said something really aggressive or threatening only to find out that the next morning when you wake up the feeling of rage is no longer there and it's like you can't live up to the things you've said the previous day? Well this has happened to me so many times and i'm including my current dilemma to the count. You see last night I was reading a series of comments on FaceBook to my boyfriend and something I said to a friend upset him.

The comments made on face book. (The red dots are my posts.)

So yes he got mad because I said "this is me loving you" to a guy friend. FYI this friend of my is scrawny and is a nerd a few years younger than me and is like a little brother to me plus he's very intimidated by me and he has a girl whom he really really likes but is too much of a coward to do anything about his feelings. My boyfriend is very manly, my age, hot and smart and funny. We've liked each other since 6th grade, we're in college now. 


So back to the story, on the phone we start arguing, I start saying sorry, and it goes on and on and on till finally I said "You know I love you and **** is just my friend for crying out loud you know him!" and then my boyfriend goes "Yeah but I don't go around telling my girl friends I love you.". That's what shut me up. First because I never told him he couldn't, second because if he didn't I'm not really sure if I would be mad or if I'd understand because I myself do it. Third was because I was so frustrated cause he of all people know's that I'm very very loving and showy and cuddly to ALL my friends, girls and guys, so he must understand right? So we stay on the phone for a few minutes in complete silence and then I say "Do you still want to talk to me?" he goes "Not really", those two words made my heart feel like it was loaded with an anchor because it slowly began to sink. I was near tears. So we continue on the phone for a few more minutes just quiet then all of a sudden he puts the phone down. That's when I lost it and went berserk! When he put the phone down I text messaged him right away saying that he shouldn't come over today to visit, he shouldn't even call or text me and that i'm not like any of his x's. Then I turned my phone off. Just a little side note the thing I said about his x's is because all of them were such bitches and they all screwed around or left him so he's traumatized. We've had a conversation about this before already and he admits that he thinks the same of me although he knows that I'm nothing like them so he said he would make a conscious effort to try and be more "open minded" and "understanding" I guess.


Now when I woke up this morning I said to myself it's hard not to text him or talk to him cause we're very very close and we like keeping in touch. This is our very first major fight and I do regret the things that I said last night but then again i'm going to continue on being stubborn because I still think that I have a strong point to prove here. I'm  no longer in rage but I want him to understand that i'm nothing like his past girlfriends and that there's nothing wrong with saying I love you or showing your love to your friends cause it's different from the love that you share with your special someone. I don't know if this makes any sense to people out there but if you have any advice or opinion, please you are free to share them on this post. Till my next post.


-smart aleck

Let me try this again.

Hi Blogging world. I'm back as an anonymous blogger who would talk about practically anything under the sun. I've done this before, blogging, but I experienced an inevitable downward spiral. Started to get lazy, felt unmotivated, very affected by the number of views and followers, and all that but now I'm going to stick to this. I will be very dedicated to posting things on this "say what ever you want" space on the world wide web. Just a brief introduction to my life. I'm a student. I'm a daughter. A girlfriend, although I prefer the term a lover. Evidently a self-proclaimed blogger. A very loyal friend. And a know-it-all. I don't have much of an exciting life especially now. It's like fun took a vacation from my life and didn't leave a notice, worst of all seems like it's on an indefinite vacation. So this is what I've come up with and there will be more to come. I will try to post every single day, if possible two to three times a day. Chao!

-smart aleck